Random Thoughts

There are thoughts that would come and go... Relationships that stay the same.. inability of proper expression and still feelings... I wasn't talking of romance...

My work life balance is something I never get. I mean I have what I need and I don't know what more.. it's like you are where you feel and suddenly you are too behind...

It was funny...

Things I now miss / forgot.. I love convertibles... How can failures make me forget love I had for these cars... I used to love checking them out... And sitting in them ... How can I forget because life took some bad turns... So much changes... Why lose love you have in your heart...

Very old quote: love in your heart wasn't put there to stay.. love is not love till you give it away..

Stillness..

Life is on standstill for very long.. Infact a lot happened but everything is still or may be we are stable and unable to handle it.

Is it a feeling or just stupid lockdown.

Somehow it is just god damn same.. nothing stays same.

Also, it could be vicious circle or we prefer to go back to same feelings or we can never change core basics. Change feels painful and we hardly accept it nor do we actually do it...

Funny thing is a lot changes on surface.. and a lot stays same.

At times, I wonder if it's vicious circle and would stay. Or its Me.. Mostly would be second option.

Second inning got over...

So, now i've decided to quit my second job and reason is only remuneration...

Work wise it was good... but when I thought this manager may ruin my career as I have refused to work on his project was not that true... after all he got demoted for his performance

Well, onsites were not great but I went through most challenging phases of my personal life. ..

Am really glad that it's over...

Health of my parent is on speedy recovery and so am I...

People who love us are the ones who stand for you.... whenever its required... doesn't matter if u r there or not...

I love raja, karan, bhabhe, Jyoti, bindu... most supportive siblings I know about... I know they are my cousins, bond is better than what most siblings share these days..

Finally one inning got over...

hey .. M back.. Finally after 4 yrs and 7 months, i have moved out of my first company...

There is lots to be missed and lots to be thankful of....

I did try for jobs at couple of places, so infrastructure wise, MT isnt bad... I have to say HR people could be really annoying, but somehow I guess managers are responsible for it. Its same drama, everywhere....

Damn world

Why is every body else under sun bothered about my marriage than me and my family?

I'll see when / If i want to settle down

For god sake keep your unwanted advice to yourself

Life@europe part 2

Hi :)



So I must say my desire to see winters has been fulfilled!!!



I am thankful for that :) :D Infact I will be able to see snow is additional bonus.. Am really thankful for that.....

Now lets move on:D

First visit to any city was that of Namur.... well I really liked architecture in Europe and I was mazed.. I def enjoyed the place.. Even if I dint liked the company with me :(

Well, ice creams would be speciality here.. I find them much better than indian icecreams...There are more flavors...So many that u have to think, Which one to eat :D

I have enjoyed Cold weather over here.. But man.. What u have in CHd or delhi is nothing close to cold weather of Brussels... man it snows here...:D
I have enjoyed hail storms so far... I hope snow fall happens :D

Ok, Now lets have some bad part...
It is too Cold to enjoy any outing.... :( and u freeze in ur short span of outdoor life.. Even if everything else is centrally heated...
@my office : Full toosh politics... 7 members in a team... 2-4 groups.. and bitching all the time.. And men claim that they dont bitch!!!

Amazingly double standards are available every where. I saw them going out with a girl all time to pubs and discs... Moment she is gone they are bitching about her how crazy she is and she hits all wrong men when she is drunk... Why the F*** were they with her in first place? Even about their own so called group members... you should see that.. Who so ever is not around.. they are telling one thing or other... Amazing..
Why is it so simple for people to nt to have ny standard? I am really blessed to have my frds.. Sincerly they are all very worthy people... Compared to Rich men I am now working with here!!! Why the hell am I even comparing?
I think it would be best in my interest to not to be honest with these gentlemen(Pun Intended) as I have to live with them for more than a year and I have already seen million colors...
And my luck.. I hate politics.. and here I am in the middle of one... Well I could have learned a bit of politics.. After all it was all in family.. So what if that was Mother's Side :P
Imagine when u can see what all crap is happening and you dont knw how to handle it.. It is not a good feeling, U need to l earn a lot.... Be positive baby ;)

Life as such in Europe. .

Well, Here is a new experience... To be in a new place, totally different environment..

Yes, language is a barrier.. I use google translate for all documents. Infact at times, i have even written down what i wanted and showed it to shop keepers.

As such , yes, being lonely is difficult in Europe. In india, I used to prefer to be alone, but here its really a problem to be alone. I do not know what exactly i miss.May be companion we take for granted in India are no longer here. Even as m alone in flat i find it difficult to be alone. So need to think of what all different time pass options can be choosen. :)

Well, yes I must say I found people racist. Still, some where there is a feeling of brown/black/white :)

What I did observe was people same across world. Human feelings are similar across. Well I find India much advanced, in terms of thought process and culture.

See, people have kids and then gradually start calling thier partners as thier wives...Mostly becoz some one in society pressurizes them to do it that way.

We have a better thought of process of first having a wife and then kids...

I honestly find so much information in Wiki as incorrect that I feel irritated. Esp today... And now I remember when my Sis used to say that much of info on wiki is wrong, So beware.

I have definately started to miss my family... Why cant we value things on time? rather than realizing their value very late or when we are alone? i wish solitude will bring much more sense in me. Thank god i have luxury of writting and not being scared of getting caught.. Why do we have sense of shame? Is it good or bad?

kind of miss Indian Sun too..Where its sunny in mornings... here you have dark/cloudy mornings.. I hardly feel like waking up. Infact I am not even aware if it is day or night. Just need to trust the watch..